Family Impact

After reading a fellow bloggers last post about family, it got me thinking about my own family.  My parents divorced when I was just barely five.  Actually the only memory I have of my my Dad and my mom in the same house is totally random.  All I remember is getting into my dad's bed which was the pull out couch in the office (I didn't even know to ask questions) because it was storming and we shared a little bag of  pizza combos.  That's all I got for memories of mom and dad.  From there on, I was split between two households that could not have been more different from each other.  My mom and step-dad were laid back and unconditonal with their parenting skills.  On the other hand, my dad and step-mom were completely opposite.  They were very strict and VERY conditional.  So as both families grew, I found myself feeling like the black sheep of the family.  My brother and sister (Ali and Boy) on my dad's side were growing up so fast in a household I could hardly relate to. And the separation began.  I love them both very much but I think we never got the chance to be as close as brothers and sisters are supposed to be.  Courtney, my sister from mom's side was much more like me.  But the six year age gap really put us on different levels growing up.  Courtney is graduating from high school this weekend and going to UK in the fall.  Its hard to believe that she is about to take the biggest step in her life so far and I could not be more excited for her.  But I feel like I have missed out on that close sisterly bond that I have always wanted, until recently.  

Both my sisters are now 19 and have started to realize that I am the best person to call when they are having problems.  And I could not be more thrilled.  It seems that finally we have all finally entered an age where we can communicate like true sisters.  I hope that our relationship continues to grow and that we can always speak freely about our beliefs and ideals.  I could look back and wish that I had something that I clearly did not have OR I can move forward with the amazing opportunity of having a huge impact on both of them while they are finding themselves in college.

the difference is...

As I am beginning to meet new people here in Macon, Ga.  It makes me re-think the friends I have had throughout my life.  I have never been the greatest at judging peoples' character.  I think that detail alone has hindered me more than I ever thought imaginable. Anyways, I lived a VERY sheltered lifestyle.  So when I made friends in middle school and high school, I would basically become part of their family.  And to me, there is no better way to learn about someone than to get to know their family. But all of a sudden, you are thrown into college basically alone.  I wanted a fresh start and I got one because I had to make all new friends when I started Auburn.  I quickly found what a disadvantage it is that there is no family to lean on.  So Do you really even know these people you call friends?  You have no clue how they grew up, what their morals are truly like or whether they are trustworthy.  I definitely made a wide variety of friends during college, jumping from one social group to another.  The only consistent aspect was alcohol.  And I have found that it is even harder to make friends outside of college.  However, I believe I have made leaps and bounds in the right direction as far as choosing friends.  

But I wish that we could all just go back to the way it used to be sometimes.  It was much easier!

1st day jitters...

So it seems that I am somewhat of a late bloomer.  Most people go to college and either already know or find out what they want to do with their lives after the short time in school.  I however, decided nothing for going on 2 years after college.  So when I finally found my calling about a month ago, needless to say, I was very excited.  

So as you can imagine the nerves were getting the best of me, on the morning of the rest of life-- my first day as a tennis pro.  And let me just say that it turned out to be great! It seems that maybe for once I have made a correct decision myself.  And boy does it feel good.  I feel that the nerves are going to continue for a little while to I get a comfortable foot in the door.  I but can live with that because I finally have found my calling!

I never thought I'd blog...

So I never thought I'd blog ever again after taking my multi-media class at auburn, but here we are. I have recently more and more been using twitter and other outlets to make comments about everyday life, and thought that I would give it a shot to create my own blog.  So here we go! ~jac